HAPPY DADDYS'S DAY

It was a productive Sunday for Miko and myself. I woke up at 10am to see if my laundry have dry. Forced Miko to wake up but pitied him at the same time because he reached home 5am this morning. He went out to buy my all time favourite, Mee Soto and he bought Nasi Padang for himself. After breakfast, we took in the laundry, folded the clothes, swept the floor, mopped the floor, cleaned the dusty fan and closet. Lethargic so we took our power nap until 5.30pm. Woke up and showered.

At 6, we all went out to have Fathers' Day Dinner at Fig & Olive; Mummy's treat. Nana joined us because her mom has to work today. I had my Fish & Chip (of all) and Miko had his all time fav, Magribi Chicken and the rest ate beef steak. After dinner, we roamed around JP. Miko & myself surprised daddy with an Adidas Shirt. Since mom has been pestering us on Mothers' Day for not getting her a gift, we bought her a bag so that she can shut her mouth already. ;P

By 8.30pm, we all went home for a deserving sleep. Miko abruptly felt unwell. Fed him panadol and he slept like a log. Get well soon baby. I love you.

SEE YOU ON THE ROAD

Yesterday, it was my 2nd attempt TP test at 2.45pm. Miko was there, watching me from afar. There's a mix of nervousness, excitement and all ready for it feelings. I just told myself to give my all and most importantly, do not hit the kerb (which I did last time ;P). I'm lucky to get such a laid-back and hilarious tester. He kept saying that I'm slow and wanted me to speed up. My purpose of driving at a low speed was because, during my 1st test, I drove at a slightly higher speed and the tester told me to slow down. Now, when I drove slower, this tester insist me to drive at a faster speed. I was in doubt at first to speed up or not. Literally, I did. He asked for it.

Kinda scary. I was worried if I'm going too fast or not fast enough. HAHA! While waiting for my results, my hands were shaking. I was afraid I might fail again. My tester came and the 1st sentence he said was, "Girl. You'll have to come back again". My heart shattered into pieces at that very moment. I wanted to cry. I recalled back, what went wrong. I was exceedingly disappointed in myself. He said I need to improve on my speed reaction. He kept talking but I was not focus on what he's saying. I was sad and I just can't think of anything.

Then when we're about to leave, he showed me my result slip and it stated there, PASSED! I was confused and looked at my tester. He giggled and congratulated me. I was dumbfounded at first. I was like.... Gosh he tricked me! I gave a sigh of relief. I'm elated. Alhamdulillah. I accumulated a total of 12 points. Not bad. Thanks to my instructor for the lessons. Thanks to my husband for the endless motivations and support.

My first achievement for the year. My next target is to get a house. Insyallah.

NEGATIVE

My menses were delayed for 2 weeks now. I actually did a pregnancy test last week but it was negative. Don't play tricks on me ley. Miko insisted to pay a visit to see doctor but I refused. I told him and myself that if my menses still didn't come by end of this month, meaning 2 months of NO MENSES, we will go for pregnancy test again. Miko is excited to hear a good news from me. Insyallah if it's my rezeki.

EMOTIONS

I am very emotionally affected these past few days and to date I am still very emotional. In doubts but I should put 100% trust. Past memories is hunting me so how am I gonna get over it. What if karma hunts me back. What if what happen back then repeats itself on me now? I am very lonely. What's going on behind my back? Every body's changing. Where's the love? See each other. Blame each other. Ignorance is the solution? No? Do we understand each other? No. What about my feelings? Try walking in my shoes. Initially, it all seems fine. I fall sick but I acclimatize myself. But then it all started a little too doubtful. Faking? Lying? Honesty? Trust? Fuck all that. I cried but it doesn't mean I'm weak. I released my anger, my feelings through crying. I feel better afterwards. I hope 1 fine day, Allah will help me to see the truth just like the good old times whereby I knew the truth behind all those lies. Allah is the greatest of all. He's always there to help me through good and bad times.

FOREVER 21

Happy 21st Birthday to my bestfriend, Shamok.